Thank you.
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It’s funny how time and people work. Apparently, time can either make you the beauty or the beast. Its even more hilarious when a person takes their insecurities and mistakes and somehow, with the aid of time, transforms them into YOUR mistake. “I’m one thats fucked up, I’m the one thats insecure, but it’s your fault. Because you’ve made me this way.”
I have never made anyone do anything they did not want to do, let’s get that straight.
What is that you say? I know I’m not perfect. & the fact of the matter is that I NEVERpretended to be. I didn’t pretend to be someone I wasn’t. Never said I wasn’t emotional, and moody, and imperfect. But that’s what all humans are sometimes. That didn’t seem to be a problem to you in the beginning. However, somethings changed. It’s not necessarily a bad thing.
There’s that saying that says, “The one that cares less controls the relationship” and to an extent I can agree with that. I do NOT need to hear I love you, or I miss you every day and night. Because at the end of the day they are just words. Words that can be easily fabricated and easily false. And for some reason, people have this misconception that always saying those words makes it anymore true or effective.
I wont say these words so often. But, isn’t that more special? I do not want to lay down by your side all day doing absolutely nothing, but when I do, isn’t that amazing?
People think that showering you with ‘love’ can make another person happy, but at the end of the day what do you have to show for your love?
Honestly. And that I subjected you to be abused by me? That I turned out to be foul and horrible, that anyone should be shamed to be in my arms?
Your pain was self inflicted.
If I ever, isolated you from your friends, yelled and screamed for no reason, or purposely tried to lower your self-esteem, then yes that’d be considered abuse on my part.
But when I, told you to go hang out with whom you please, never tried to control your actions, If I was mad or didn’t feel like talking ignored you so I wouldn’t blow up on you, then how could I have done you harm?
not purposely anyways.
If my actions are the worst as you say then I’m glad you feel that way. Lesson learned.
Sorry if I’m precarious but,
You’ll learn too
In life, I learned that the easiest i love you’s are the fastest let downs.
You reinforced me of that.
I don’t blame you like you blame me, but have fun playing the ‘blame game’. Im sure that will work out great for you.
That just shows how you are. Being the good one, always. Your reputation never tarnished. I was always always always the wrong doer. Even now. The love really shows when you’re pointing your fingers at me.
Nevertheless,
I sincerely wish you the best in your eager endeavors. I hope you’re wishing me the best too. :)
